Nada faz sentido Lembro-me de ouvir Mary gritando e corri, mas Por que minha esposa pegou fogo e desapareceu? O olhar que ele me dirigiu pareceu querer dizer que eu era um louco. Como eu poderia falar com um estranho sobre isso? Nunca fui a um psiquiatra depois de tudo por que passei quando era um fuzileiro naval, e consegui superar. Meus amigos acham que estou ficando maluco.
De repente, quem sabe, estou mesmo Onde eu estava, como andava meu relacionamento com Mary nas semanas anteriores, se havia problemas com os meninos Sei aonde querem chegar. Jacob, tio da Mary, organizou um funeral para a sobrinha em Illinois, sua cidade de origem.
Ultimamente, tudo parece sonho. Fico me lembrando daquela noite Deixei minha esposa sozinha para ir ver TV, e ela morreu. Lamento muito, Mary. Tento bater papo ou pergunto se quer jogar beisebol. Qualquer coisa para ele se sentir como um garoto normal de novo. Acordei ontem com muita ressaca Ele ficou falando sobre como preciso ajeitar a vida, para o bem dos meninos Claro que mal fui trabalhar Bom, falei que ele poderia ficar com ela.
Ele se calou na hora. Quer dizer que vai desistir do seu trabalho por causa disso? Deixei os meninos na casa da Julie e fui ao primeiro lugar em que eu pudesse trocar o cheque. Julie tinha morrido. Algo a dilacerou toda. Missouri encontrou um dente no corpo. Nunca mais quero voltar. Quanto mais cedo se acostumar, melhor. Jacob apareceu, procurando os meninos. Vi meu carro cair numa pedreira.
He also puts into the tube seven earthworms beaten into a paste, and several splinters from a tree which has been struck by lightning. The idea in regard to the worms is not quite clear, but it may be that they are expected to devour the soul of the victim, as earthworms are supposed to feed upon dead bodies, or perhaps it is thought that from their burrowing habits they may serve to hollow out a grave for the soul under the earth, the quarter to which the shaman consigns it.
In other similar cer- emonies the dirt-dauber wasp or the stinging ant is buried in the same manner in order that it may kill the soul, as these are said to kill other more power- ful insects by their poisonous sting or bite.
The wood of a tree struck by lightning is also a potent spell for both good and evil and is used in many formulas of various kinds. At its base he digs a hole, in the bottom of which he puts a large yellow stone slab. The shaman and his em- ployer fast until after the ceremony. If the ceremony has been properly carried out, the victim becomes blue, that is, he feels the effects in himself at once, and, unless he employs the coun- tercharms of some more powerful shaman, his soul begins to shrivel up and dwindle, and within seven days he is dead.
January 3: Something new yesterday. Sexually predatory, voracious demons. They can change their appear- ance, and they all transformed to look like Mary at one point. God help me, I was weak. Or not believe, really. I agreed to their deception.
All of them. Maybe New Mexico next, so we would be close to Daniel. Judeo-Christian versions have them as female demons who harvest semen that incubi male version then use to impregnate women with chil- dren who are more readily possessed by demons—or who are more likely to become witches.
Birth defects were also said to be the result of incubi. A parallel European tradition, of the night-mare, is a creature which rides the sleeper, partially suf- focating him and at the same time causing sexual dreams.
Naamah was regarded as the inventor of divination, and in some traditions as a patron spirit of music. In certain strains of Hebrew myth, incubi and succubi are generally called lilin and lilith. They are said to be the children of Lilith, and to die at a rate of one hundred per day because she would not come back to Adam. Men become victims of the lilith by being ridden at night, the seed being used to create more demonic children.
An amulet inscribed with the initials of the three Magi— Caspar, Melchior, and Balthasar—is said to protect children from lilin and lilith. Other traditions include Greek empusa, which attacked travelers but also drained their life force through intercourse, and Turkish Al Basti which also kidnaps horses.
The succubi I killed said something about having plans for the Winchesters. Next week, the Winchesters are going to be residents of Albuquerque. March In the last week, Sammy has played a sunbeam in the school play and I killed a demon inhabiting the body of an old woman. It knew something about the succubi, I think. Or are we? Am I getting paranoid? The boys are doing well. Smart kid, Sammy. It was warm today, and the boys kicked a soccer ball around.
I picked up a job working construction. Feels good to be punching a clock again, actually. The regular rhythm of it. Part of me needs that. I think a lot of things died in Lawrence, and that dream was one of them. April 1: Monday, I walked away from another job, and my younger son almost was kidnapped by some kind of demon.
Only she started to take him somewhere else. She would have killed me, and taken Sammy, but Dean came through. I almost lost both of my boys today. Lyle, or the thing calling itself Ms. Lyle, wanted Sammy for something. Lyle wanted. She just said Sam was special. How am I going to explain Ms. To top it all off, I had to give Sammy a sharp lecture on not talking to strangers.
While I was on the phone with Bobby, he just got out of the car and went up to a black Seville. All Sammy would say about it was that the guy wanted to know where we were going. Lyle and the others. All the signs were there with Ms.
But if you buy demons, you have to buy Hell, and if you buy Hell, you have to buy Satan, which means you have to buy God, right? The way Bobby put it is that demons are a lot like us where belief is concerned. If demons exist, they are nothing like us.
But I guess I think they do exist. And I think Ms. Lyle was one. I was in bed with her. I let it trick me away from the mission. I let myself be led, I let myself be convinced that everything can be normal again, and it was all a tactic. She wanted something from me, and she thought she knew how to get it. And she was almost right. I wanted to be touched. Just contact. And looking back, it makes me sick. Wonder if he knew something.
Another me- dieval note: criminals and suicides used to be buried at cross- roads. Papa Legba in voodoo magic is the loa of crossroads. You go to him if you want to talk to the iwa, the gods going back to Yoruba traditions. Eshu is the patron of travelers, god of crossroads. Hoodoo traditions prescribe certain actions at crossroads to gain gifts in music, love, or power. Or money. April Went to see Silas last night. What the hell does it mean? Why Sammy? What does he have to do with any of this?
And what is coming? He said I brought him out of his coma, and then he was gone back into it. Also I need to think about Sammy. Why was Ms. Lyle so interested in him? More voodoo. The houngan man or mambo woman is the priest. You need them to talk to the loas, also called orisha loas also known as iwa—African and New World terminolo- gies mix freely. Orisha are said to be beings who manifest aspects of the natural world, and aspects of a nameless god.
So they straddle the physical and spirit worlds. Bokor are the ones who make zombies. Ogun is the loa or maybe iwa, or orisha? The story goes that Samuel Colt one Halloween night made a gun and thirteen bullets that could kill anything. And if it exists, I wonder where it is. Ogun would know. Go to New Orleans? Must be a bokor down there who would do a hunter a favor. Other veves: Baron Samedi, loa of the dead, stands at crossroads. Also loa of sex, known for his coarse appetites.
Eros and Thanatos, all in one, dressed in tux and top hat. If you want to talk to him, bring plenty of booze and tobacco.
She and Baron Samedi are related to the Ghede, a family of spirits that have to do with cemeteries, funerals, death, etc. Different traditions spell out the relation- ship differently.
Either Samedi is a Ghede, or he created them or brought them to life, or he is an aspect of them and they speak through him. I have to sleep. Up early tomorrow. Dean missed his shot. I sent him after the buck, a beautiful twelve-pointer, and he dropped the gun when he tripped on the trail. Then out of no- where comes Sammy, who picks up the gun and lays that big boy out. A seven-year-old. I taught him that, Dean too. I taught them that everything should be seen as a threat.
He rode in the Seville to the trailhead, and found us from there. I feel like I should punish him somehow, but the truth is I should be punishing myself. We get home, and Bobby tells me to go see Silas again. He said again that Sammy was special, and he wanted some time to talk to Sam and understand what was happening. So Dean and I left for an hour, and on the way back I saw the Seville.
He said he and Silas talked for a while. I went inside, left Dean out with his brother to catch up. Or if I have, it was after an artillery strike in Nam. April Been on the run, running harder even than usual.
The driver of the Seville called himself Anderson, said he was a hunter. No little boy could have done what I saw in there.
He passed up two chances to take Sammy out. It was Dean who killed Anderson. My oldest son is blooded. All I ever write about is death.
Because all I ever see is death, and you know what? I did that to myself. May 2: Sammy is eight years old today. Happy birthday, kiddo. Lyle was after Sammy because he has something she wants. She said he was special.
So did Silas. My boy. Have started reading about demonology because of Bobby. Fourth volume in a series begun and mostly dedicated to astrology. A disciple of Swedenborg and Mesmer. Weyer a student of Agrippa. The Pseudomonarchia has much in common with the first book of the Lemegeton, called Goetia.
A lengthy catalog of demons, with variations on their names, notes on their appearances, and brief instructions on conjuration and abjuration. Full of odd notes about how many legions each demon controls, etc. Goetia has better diagrams, and is more useful for actual conjuration. The story goes on to tell hhow Solomon fell in love with a Jeb Jebusaean woman Shunammite?
In a moment of w weakness, he did, and fell away f God, becoming "the sport from o idols and demons. Queen of Sheba characterized as a witch, unlike her presentation in the OT.
Also interesting that the Koran refers to the tradition that Solomon built the Temple with the assistance of bound demons: see sura 21, 34, PD, in its entry on Gaap, says that Solomon wrote a book of conjurations, and "mingled therewithal all the holy names of God. Eleven is steel, twelve and thirteen are silk and lace? Feels like it should be the other way around, that steel should come later.
In Ugaritic Mot "Death" spelled mt is personifed i as a god of death. The word is cognate wth i forms meaning "death" in other Semitic languages: with Hebrew "moth" or "maveth" ; with Canaanite, Egyptian Aramaic, Nabataean, and Palmyrene "mut" ; with Jewish Aramaic, Chrsi tian Palestinian Aramaic, and Samaritan "mut" ; with Syrac i "maat"? Hadad seems to be urging that Mot come to his feast and submit himself to Hadad. Numerous gaps in the text make this portion of the tale obscure.
Mot concedes and the conflict ends. But earlier in a philosophical creation myth Sanchuniathon has referred to great wind which merged with its parents and that connection was called Eros Desire : From its connection Mot was produced, which some say is mud, and others a putrescence of water com- pound; and out of this came every germ of creation, and the generation of the universe. Alsso Mot bust forth into light, and Al sunn, and moon, and stars, and the su ggrreat constellations.
T language here is confusing, a The bbad summary and possibly corrupt, and the form "Mot" here is not the same as "Muth," which appears later. No Christmas tree, no carrots and milk for Santa and the reindeer.
A couple of days ago I handed them presents, and they gave me a set of night- vision goggles that Dean must have pinched from a gun show we passed through in Amarillo a couple of months ago.
Sam gets resentful and has some trouble handling his temper. Neither of them should have to do those things. Lyle Lilith? They came after my boys. And how do I avoid this question: Would the boys be better off somewhere else, with someone else, living normal lives? They belong with me. Merry Christmas, everyone. It makes me think something big is happening. Then, when he had her in his power, he treated her real bad, almost starved her to death.
He worked his bearwalk on one of her relatives, too, and that was enough. March I thought the lesson was learned back in Wisconsin, but the same thing almost happened again. I left the boys next at the beach in Two Lakes State Park and went looking for a skin- walker, and then it was Ichi all over again.
Only this time the skinwalker took on the appearance of a park ranger it had killed, and nearly got the boys to come with it because they trusted the uniform.
I took it down, and lit into the two of them. Especially Dean. I thought I was tough when I was thirteen, but Dean would have kicked my ass six ways to Sunday. April Procopius, Secret History, on Justinian: And some of those who have been with Justin- ian at the palace late at night, men who were pure of spirit, have thought they saw a strange demoniac form taking his place.
I write these instances not as one who saw them myself, but heard them from men who were positive they had seen these strange occur- rences at the time. They also say that a certain monk, very dear to God, at the instance of those who dwelt with him in the desert went to Constantinople to beg for mercy to his neighbors who had been outraged beyond en- durance. And when he arrived there, he forthwith secured an audience with the Emperor; but just as he was about to enter his apartment, he stopped short as his feet were on the threshold, and suddenly stepped backward.
Whereupon the eunuch escorting him, and others who were present, importuned him to go ahead. But he answered not a word; and like a man who has had a stroke staggered back to his lodging.
And when some followed to ask why he acted thus, they say he distinctly declared he saw the King of the Devils sitting on the throne in the palace, and he did not care to meet or ask any favor of him. Last year on his birthday we were getting the hell out of Albuquerque. This year I nearly lost the boys because of the skinwalker. May This list is beings that can change their shape at will, or who undergo recurrent changes.
Never met anyone who has, either. Needs some separate research. After livng that are untamed, trckstersh, i years, kitsune acquires its ninth tail along with the ability to see and hear anything happening anywhere in the word. Often change appearance to beautful i young women, encountered alone.
They will take human lovers, and bear chidren, l but vanish again when their true nature is dscovered.
Exorcism must take place in a shrine to Inar. As trcksters, i kitsune often target pride and greed, taking people down a peg. More likely to fnd in abandoned houses, where they will resist new residents.
Korean version known as kumiho, Chinese huli jing. Kumiho generally are evil, eating either human hearts or livers in an effort to consume human essence and become human themselves; less common varanti stories have the kumiho becoming human by resisting its urge to kill for a thousand days. Huli jing more ambivalent, like kitsune. Emphasis in Chinese tales on possession and seduction.
TANUKI, Japanese "raccoon dog", can assume any shape and often takes on the appearance of inanimate objects—teakettles, etc. Largely good-humored, but can turn dangerous as well. Known for the size of theri testicles. Very fond of alcohol, and like to play games wthi merchants by cheatng i them using dsguised i leaves as money. Handed down matrilineally, power also related to more general wtchcraft. Think of Ogun and the Colt. Parallel were-hyena legend is of the qora.
Ethiopian Jews often accused of being bouda. Also numerous legends in Ethiopia and Sudan that white—or albino—people had hyena blood, or could transform into hyenas. Shed their seal skins to come ashore at bodes prescribed intervals, or when they fall in love.
If a human captures the skin, the selkie is in his or, less often, her power. Selkies live human lives, have human chidrenl. Then they seize it and return to the ocean. Some selkies are out to avenge hunting of seals—they are said to curse and sabotage fishermen. Tales come from across the North Atlantic, some similar stories in Pacific Northwest.
Related stories of swan- maiden swanmay, dove-girl, peacock maiden , varous i other animal-wfei tales. Known to appear as a giant talking mushroom, and to keep company with wolves and bears. When in human form, his eyes glow green and his shoes are on the wrong feet. Will enter pacts with peasants or farmers, keeping their cattle or sheep from getting lost, but will also react voli ently to any per- ceived threat.
Hdes i axes, leads lumberjacks astray, destroys signs, kidnaps young women, even known to tickle peopel to death. Leszy can be repelled by wearing clothes inside out or by starting a fire in their forests. Unusual among shape- shifting beings because it has a family: leszachka, wfe,i and leshonky, children. Sometimes take human form to live among i of water or humans. More often they live in bodes underground, where they guard treasure. Nagas have influence over natural events, and are offered sacrifices.
Rakshasas are powerful shape-changers who may not have a native form. They also have magical powers, including i ity. They are cannibalistic, and particularly target invsibil anything religious or holy. In addition to human fesh, l they will eat spoiled food. Their fingernails are poisonous. In the Mahabharata, some rakshasas who give up cannibalism eventually become allies of humans. YUXA: In Tatar folklore, a snake who reaches years of age becomes a yuxa, and will assume the appearance of a l who then become more yuxa.
Sometimes they attack those who are the most like they were in life—typically overly proud samurai, priests, nobles. More broadly, they deceive travelers, kidnap children, and lead priests astray. Often their victims are found tedi to the tops of trees, sometimes insane. They have strong powers of illusion, and will possess young women in an attempt to seduce priests and monks away from their vows. Sometimes it can be propitiated wth i sacrifices.
PUCA: May appear as a varety i of animals, always dark in color. Crops left in the feli ds after this date are considered to belong to it, as it is always hungry. If not fed, its temperament can turn more dangerous. As a human, tries to seduce young women. As horse, it carres i its rider into the water before eatng i the rder i , leaving only the liver.
If kept away from water, it can be controlled. Can be i snakes or dsemboded i spirts, i but typically used to descrbe i dolphins who can assume human form. Encantados come from another word,l have magical abilities related to music and seduction.
Like Celtic faeries, they sometimes kidnap children, especially progeny of their human liaisons—but no changeling stories. Encantados are known to drve i peopel mad, but rarely kill outright. Will sometimes force a transmutation of a human into a new encantado, or simply glamour a human into following the encantado to its realm, known as Encante. In human form, they wear hats to cover their blowholes, which do not dsappear i in the transformation.
A magical powder composed of manioc and chile, scattered over the water where the encantado appeared, is said to break their spell. Loki—trcksters i always can change shape? Ell egua, Coyote. Hell, Bugs Bunny is always dressing up like a woman. May This would have been our fourteenth anniversary. I went and looked. So I handed Sammy the. Sometimes a. November 2: Mary has been dead for nine years. O mne mness angeli, boni et mali, ex vir- tute naturali habent potestatem transmutandi corpora nostra.
Alll ang Al angelels, good good and bad bad, hav have the power of transforming our bodies. The Stone Heliotrope dazles the sight, and makes him that wears it to be invis- ible, the Stone Lyucurius takes away delusions from before the eyes, the perfume of the Stone Lypparis cals forth all the beasts, the Stone Synochitis brings up infernal Ghosts, the Stone Anachitis makes the images of the Gods appear.
The Ennecis put under them that dream, causeth Oracles. Yea, even much more—they locked every door Upon horses, cows, heifers and stirks; The house-doors were barred and the gateways tarred, Thus, showing their faith in their works.
What more could be done? And thus dear day may come again into my house, in the name of God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost. All this be guarded here in tme, i and there in eternity. January Dean turns fourteen today. He took off to the movies with a girlfriend.
I think her name is Katie. Quite the ladykiller, that kid. Like I was at his age. Hell-raising, foul-mouthed, full of piss and vinegar.
Koresh from Davdi and Cyrus. Cyrus the only gentile given the designation "messiah" in the Tanakh. Also birthday of Eiot l Ness. May 2: Sammy is ten years old today. It was a lousy day, for him and me. Today it was bowhunting. Especially in my case. May Tulpa created through intense ritual visualizations known as dubthab. Physical form of tulpa becomes apparent to the senses after the mind can begin to sense its spirit presence. Evans-Wentz wrote that enlightened magicians can de- stroy tulpa as easily as create them—also that those masters can incorporate their spiritual being into the body of another person.
Determined will is the beginning of all magical operations. It is because men do not perfectyl imagine and believe the result that the arts of magic are uncertain, while they might be perfectyl certain. All things are possible to him that believeth. We tell each other stories, and when enough people are concentrating on an idea, or start to believe it, it becomes real.
Crys- tal balls, divination, prisms. I want to talk to her so bad. Nor he shall not die without shrift, nor with theeves to be taken. Also he shall have no wrong neuther of Lord or Lady. Ten years. Been thinking about urban legends all year, and about how what happened at our house ten years ago might already be an urban legend in Lawrence, to go with Stull Church and the Eldridge Hotel.
Ten years later, I still wake up wanting revenge. Whenever I think about that, I start wondering how I might see her again, talk to her. So I hold myself back. Today I was reading some old urban legends, and meant to write this one down. Either it will kill you, gouge your eyes out, or mutilate your face.
Why the hell would anyone do this? Other varia- tions say to chant her name thir- teen times. More recent versions of the origin story say Mary was a witch who was either hanged or burned at the stake—or that she was mangled in a car crash—or that she killed her children, or had them taken from her, and committed suicide. Divination by mirror has been practiced in nearly all cul- tures for as long as mirrors have been around. Folklore from various places holds that if you perform a certain ritual while looking in a mirror, you will see your future husband.
In many of these stories, the danger is that you might also see some aspect of Death, which means you will die before marrying. Basutos believe crocodiles try to take these souls. November Varation i on Boody l Mary. An alternate version has the boy getting out to investigate, and the girl stays in the car all night, hearing strange noises, only to dscover i in the morning that her boyfriend has been murdered and is hanging in a tree above the car.
Late at night, someone picks up a young woman, sometimes a girl. When the drveri asks the people living at the address, he is todl that the girl he descrbes i ded—or i i was bured—a few years ago near the same stretch of road where he i picked her up. Lots of varations. Joan Petri Kintl wrote about a prophetic hitchhiker in Sweden in She changes beer to malt, acorns, and blood, then prophesies about harvests and war before disappearng.
I remember the Dckie when I was a kid. The boys got me a book that they must have stolen from a shop while I was rooting around in the esoteric shelves. December Witch bottle: Small glass bottle or fask l specially prepared to trap spells or evil spirits.
Contents typically included urine, hair, nail clippings, red thread. Larger stoneware vessels popularly known as Bellarmines, after a Catholic inquisitor. Bottles might also contain special earth, sea water, nails or pins, menstrual blood, thorns. Generally bured i under the floor in a difficult spot to access—below the hearth or frepl i ace, sometimes threshold.
Cats sometimes also hidden in walls, also horse skulls. Powerful wards. Sometimes shoes also used as spell traps, concealed wthin i walls or floors. Apotropaic: combating hostile magic, charms. A week ago he helped me take out a spirit haunting a grocery owned by an Indian family in Erie, Pennsylvania.
It matters what their traditions were when they were alive. Have been reading about Indian mythology. Gods upon gods, thousands of them, and each of them has attendant monsters and demons. Some of the ones that keep popping up, not so much mythology as folklore, are pishacha and acheri. They haunt cemeteries and places where cremations have taken place. They can change their shape, and in some stories they can also become invisible. Sometimes they attack and eat their vicims, other times they possess them and drive them insane.
But if I cannot destroy him, I cause him to be possessed with a demon. From Indian folk tradition. A protection against them is to wear a red thread around the neck this was also said to protect small children against sorcery in some European countries. Red thread: Kabbalah? But an old folk superstition states that tying a red string around the body is a segulah, a protective act.
Some Orthodox Jews tie red strings on the cribs of infants to ward off evil spirits or the evil eye. Scholarly Jewish tradition consid- ers the red string a superstition that veers dan- gerously close to impiety, even idol-worship.
Sefer Yetzirah: Everything derived from the Word, the creation of language, from which comes every aspect of physical world. Otra promesa. Espero no necesitarla nunca. Enero Espero que podamos quedarnos. Cuando vuelva a casa, iremos a hacer algo en familia. Iremos a Chuck E. Cheese's y comeremos pizza y jugaremos a videojuegos hasta que los chicos caigan rendidos. Mayo 2. Y efectivamente, estamos en Colorado. Creo que los cazadores llaman demonio a cualquier cosa cuando no saben lo que es.
Estaba en Greektown, Detroit. A veces parecen humanos, otras veces parecen como hombres-lobo aunque en algunas versiones los vrykolakas son destruidos siendo desenterrados y comidos por un lobo.
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